Wednesday 4 February 2009

Saying Goodbye

She stands there staring.
She knows that he has something to say but won’t share it.
Her heart is pounding.
She is too scared to question
but knows that silence will only make it worse.
How can a situation get any better without talking?
She has been here before.
Knowing that she doesn’t want to go through it again,
but can’t help but push for an answer.
When did things get so hard?
When did they change?
Her mouth is dry, her heart beating inconsistently.
Her breathing getting deeper each time.
“Close your eyes and breathe” she repeats to herself.
“No tears will fall today” She looks at the floor and closes her eyes.

No words have been spoken yet.
Images of happy times together, fill her mind.
She looks up from the ground,
as a single tear rolls down her face.
He looks at her and says “sorry”.
The single tear turns into a steady flow,
as she watches him walk away.
Not being able to speak, nor move.
A part of her is going with him.

She sits there, holding onto the small hope that he is going to turn around.
But he keeps on walking.
Feeling empty and alone, she stays.
She doesn’t want to go home, alone.
If she could just go back.
Back to when he was there.
When he could wipe away those tears.
Just the thought of his arms around her, turns the river into a stream.

She makes her way home.
Back to the memories.
Sitting alone in her room.
Staring at the walls.
Coated with pictures, experiences.
All washed away with that one word,
In that one breathe.

She waits, looking at her phone.
Waiting for contact.
Hours pass, what seems like days.
Just staring.
Waiting. Waiting.
Nothing.

Just like how she feels.
Nothing.
Emptiness.
Loneliness
It’s so hard to say goodbye.

She looks at his picture,
“When did it all change?”

2 comments:

  1. a bit like a song of mariah carey but quite nice on the overall xx

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  2. its not suppose to b nice, really!! jus feelings that everybody has felt at least once, so people no they aint alone..thansk for the feedback tho x

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